I have to wonder if some people prefer to be in bad moods rather than good ones. I think this because I work with a nurse who is in a perpetual bad mood. I'm now a person (due to extensive therapy) who can easily find the good and I find myself nearly always in a good mood. I hum to myself while smiling, my patients state that I am sweet, and my coworkers comment on my bright outlook. Today was no different than any other day in which I come into work with positive thoughts and feelings. I feel that if I can spread some good cheer around perhaps those around me will be happier as well, unfortunately this does not work on the particular individual I had beforehand mentioned. I was initially floated to another department but when the needs of my own increased enough for me to return. I had returned to my home unit. The moment I walked through the door I could tell that today for this nurse was no different than any other, her scowl seemed to darken the room. I smiled as I always do and asked her how her morning had progressed which was responded with another scowl and "The same shit as always, just a new day." I do not find a fault with this person, but I just wish she was more perceptive and receiving when someone offers good moods. I have seen other people attempt to cheer this woman and their efforts are usually received in the same manor as mine.
I realize that people are individually responsible for bringing themselves into good, cheerful moods, and I also realize that some people need that extra outside help to elevate their mood. Obviously this is a personal choice for her to remain in such a dark state of mind, but her actions and behavior represent my entire department. I was appalled (but not surprised) to hear people on the floor I had floated to speak of this nurse and how on prior occasions when floated to their department has exhibited such negative attitudes that not only staff complained but patients as well. I have personally have had two patients of mine express a concern regarding this nurse's attitude. What upsets me regarding these situations is that I am now held responsible for her behavior. I apologize multiple times and they state that there is no need for me to be sorry for her actions, but how can I not apologize when she is representing our unit? I go to these other units and I feel the need to be extra bubbly in order to show them that not all of us have such a negative attitude towards work. I feel the need to apologize to her patients stating that not all of the staff shares her feelings and that we are very concerned with the care they receive while in our facility. I am constantly doing PR work while around this woman and I tire of being looked upon by staff, patients, and family so negatively because they perceive us as being heartless, careless, and unconcerned.
Well, that was my rant and now that its finally off my chest I feel again at ease and relaxed. I look over to my side occasionally and watch her, wondering what about her life makes her so miserable, but I feel that I'll never know the answer to that. I feel sorry for her, no one should ever have to be so truly upset with life. I hope she too finds peace of mind like I did and will one day be able to come into work, singing and smiling with cheer.
Cheers!
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